week thirty-three

 i try hard to remember what your face looked like
but it feels so far away.
you used to glow,
the air around you used to glisten,
and there was life in your smile.
i miss your smile now...your real smile
and your full-belly laughter.
i miss the way you made people feel 
and how much you cared.
i miss the ease with which you lived.
i try so hard to remember what you were like
and how you used to be,
to remember the reasons for your joy.
it all feels so very far away...
you feel so very far away...
come back, Shaina, come back.
i miss you.